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| college is coming.
oh dear.
iu here i come?!
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| 1. i did not and am not using you.
2. i should have done what was best for me and just not cared about anyone else, since misery is the product of both ends.
3. i love you
4. and i love you
5. i also don't care.
6. high school called, they want their drama back.
7. and i gladly turn it over, i didn't want it in the first place.
8. you can take a horse to water, but you can't make it drink.
9. so drink, drown, or dehydrate.
10.lets get these teen hearts beating, faster, faster.
11. i will not rest until the scale says 150
12. hunger is interesting?
13. this armor will stay up until further notice, don't try to take it down, it won't work.
14. i've taken some steps backwards.
15. i need to pick a college.
16. i need to work on my independent project.
17. august is full of birthdays, i'm excited.
18. tonight is girls night, and saturday is my party.
19. WROO HOO.
20. he doesn't like me, good, i made it that way on purpose.
21. the best part is, this happened last summer, i'm pretty sure i know how it's going to turn out this summer.
22. i am going to be the one left, alone, friendless, but you know, i guess that's the way life goes.
23. nelly furtado was correct, as she usually is.
24. i'm going to start a revolution, watch me.
25. i hope that swarthmore replies soon.
26. i hate him. and none of you know who i'm talking about.
27. i don't need anyone, or anything, and the more i tell myself this lie, the more truthful it becomes.
28. good night and good luck darling
29. because frankly my dear, i don't give a damn.
30. right now there is beauty in the breakdown
31. and for right now, i will not say a goodbye to arms
32. because i need their metal security
33. something that love will never give.
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| ahh!! i need to lose 25 more pounds.
i've lost 13 so far. but really, actually no. i would like to get back down to 150. see, if i get much below that people will start coming up to me and asking if i'm anorexic again, and that was NOT cool. i really miss the way i used to look. i was rail thin and ran five miles a day. now i'm just chubby. and no one likes fat chicks. i need to start dancing again, really. running is great and everything, but in comparison to dance it just doesn't do anything. hip-hop burns 800 calories an hour.
[i used to dance three hours a day, at LEAST.]
so, in addition to eating more fruits and vegetables and ignoring meat since it mostly makes me feel sick anyway, i'm going to dance at least 1.5 hours a day.
i would like to wear my size 8 clothes that i was wearing this time last year.
abe will NOT come home to a chubby girl.
my weight gain has also affected my health, ALOT. i'm hormonal and can't seem to have a normal period. therefore i can actually justify my desire to lose weight. it's really in essence for my health.
but i won't obsess like i have been, because that stresses you out, and stress= weight gain......
love
domini
height: 5'7
weight 175
target weight: 150
normal resting weight: 160
someone my frame is supposed to weigh 160-165. i'm a medium sized athlete, and i'm also obviously african-american. therefore i have slightly different standards than caucasians.
really, if i lose 15 pounds i'll be fine, but just to be safe, i'm tagging 25.
by 5 november, 2007.
[my drivers license is from when i seriously weighed 150, and that wasn't even a year ago]
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| It has been almost a year since I updated this thing. Well, to say the least, Junior year of High School was just as hellish as people described. Even more so in parts, but heavenly in others. I went through three boyfriends. I'm madly in love with Abe, with whom it's still "complicated" now, according to facebook. But of course, it's far more complicated than facebook could ever explain with a sentence or a status. I'm actually kind of sad because he hasn't called me in a week, or returned my phone calls? I know he's busy but I miss him. :( I should probably send that letter that Katie and I wrote to him at Foster Park. We want to have a surprise party when he gets back...... Before XC season starts again. Well, it will have started, but he won't have been here lol! In the meanwhile, The College Process is in full swing. Already I am looking for scholarships, interviewing at schools and attending information sessions for schools such as Yale. Wroo Hoo! I actually would like to get in to Yale, it seems like an amazing place to go. I know EVERYONE and their mother wants to get into an Ivy League school, but really, it sounds like a place I would like to go. They have a very big emphasis on Community Service, something I admire, and Yale has an amazing academic atmosphere. Bryn Mawr gave me the President's Book Award in June, and I attended the Susquehanna University Advanced Writer's Institute during the last week of June. Everything has been absolutely amazing! My professors even thought that my work was good. My little old poems lol? I couldn't believe it! And Girls State was absolutely fantastic. I loved it. I would do it all over again, only this time run for Secretary of State. Or Superintendent of Public Instruction. w00t! My Leighty City Ladies! IKC Work Camp was GREAT again this year, Jonathon and Dave are the best teammates ever, we always get the job DONE! This summer has been amazing......
Love,
Domini
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| ugh. though mr chiang is one of my favorite teachers.... like seriously EVERY time i leave physics, i want to throw javelin like i did in australia.
because i am HORRIBLE AT PHYSICS.
oh yeah
and everything else is fine.
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other places
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www.bookdivas.com
www.ultimate-guitar.com
www.tagged.com
www.myspace.com
www.hi5.com
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